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Saturday, November 10, 2012


Auni is already 14 months this month. How time flies. She's more mobile now, non-stop walking/running in the house. Well, she's not actually running running, but she does walk fast. Daring us to catch her. She is curious about everything. Touching and tasting everything everywhere.

Sometime she does push my buttons. Like when she tries to climb out of the bath tub whenever I'm done giving her a shower . I've tried to reason with her, explaining that it is dangerous to do so. I know, I know some of you might think I'm crazy trying  to explain things to a toddler but I believe that is much better than shouting at her.

These past few days, she put her head and body in a position as she is about to do a somersault. I always picked her up immediately if I saw her doing it. Yesterday she did it again and that was when I raised my voice. She starts crying of course but calm down immediately when I hugged her. I'm worried if she do it when I'm in the toilet or in the kitchen. Do I worry unnecessarily?

eager to write whenever she sees a pen/pencil :)

playing 'ghost' with my tudung :)

Sunday, November 4, 2012

Life can be hard sometimes

Life a little crazy these days. With my husband working almost full time and me trying to finish this endless journey. Yes, I am still writing my thesis. In the middle of that, I am still working on my second case study. Totally different data set (i.e. different measurement, different variables, etc). To make things more worse challenging, after I have produced multiple sets of results from my model on this data, we (my postdoc, the professor from the collaboration research team & myself) found that the analysis just represent 5% of the total data population. Eeekkk... It is not anybody fault. Let's just say things happen and they happen for a reason. This happened mid-August. So by now, I've recovered from the stress and panic that glitch had caused.

I've met with my supervisor last two weeks and highligted some obsevations and conclusions drawn from my second case study. Also, I try to negotiate with her to put a pause/stop in this second case study. I totally understand why they (research team) are passionate with the method I'm working on but I am at the point where I want to continue with the research but my funding has already run out. In fact, my funds ran out in July 2012. This second case study (as well as my first case study) if fully succesfull will be quite a breakthrough in an emerging field.

Pushing through all this hardships has most of the time takes its toll on me. Really. I'm ever so grateful to Allah for giving an understanding and supportive husband. Sometimes he can looks like he does not care because he didn't ask about my research progress. But I know he cares when he is alright if I don't cook for certain day (which is seldom), when he said we arrange for packing our things once you get your date for viva, and many other instances.

Ya Hayyu, ya Qayyumu, bi-rahmatika astaghithu 
(O the Living, O the Eternal, I seek help in Your grace)

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