Finally...

It has been more than 2 months since I took a writing hiatus. Thousands apologies to any of you who drop by to see any update. I can understand if you delete me from your list :'( I wasn't extremely busy, just the usual chaos of working towards my PhD. Guess what, this not-so-new year marks the beginning of my third year. Truth is I was easily tired those days (December to January). December 2010 was the month where I literally did almost nothing other than lying on my bed. There were mornings which I woke up and found plumbum-like taste lingering in my mouth. Then I began to throw up after dinner. Followed by starting to lose my appetite for food. I haven't and didn't thought of anything other than probably because it was winter and I was starting to get sick. Until my period of the month didn't come on its due time.

I waited until it was about a week late and decided to do the test. I just didn't want to put too much hope. We've been trying to conceive since August 2010; i.e. when the doctor gave us the "clearance" to get
pregnant. So, on the last day of school before the Christmas & New Year break, I stopped at the pharmacy to but a pregnancy test kit before heading home. A box of one stick costs about £5 and a box of 2 sticks costs around £8. So I thought let's get the 2 sticks deal, you know just in case I need to double check. I grabbed two boxes and brought it to the till. The gentleman at the till gave me a slightly curious look as if to say "Are you sure you?". Not until when he said £16 pound were I realized that I actually grabbed two boxes that contains 2 sticks each. I wasn't going to open a pharmacy of my own to need that much pregnancy test kit. Eeuuww... Very embarassing!

I did the pregnancy test that evening. Well, 1 stick is enough to confirm that I. AM. PREGNANT. :))

ALHAMDULILLAH, all praise to Allah. My husband was out at work. So I left the stick in a disposable cup in the shower as a surprise for him. Hemmm... Wasted effort! I waited and waited and waited for him to say something about the stick. It wasn't a very long wait actually but I can’t wait to tell him. So I finally said "Abang, I'm pregnant."

He looked at me and asked, ”How do you know?”

Dushh!! “I did the pregnancy test. Didn’t you see the stick I left in the shower?”

“The white stick? I thought its your tooth brush.! Dushh! Dushh! That’s why I said wasted surprised! Hemm…

We went to see a doctor to register my pregnancy in the following week. The doctor said, “This is a total miracle.” When I asked her why, she said not everyone is as lucky as I am; diagnosed with cancer, been through chemotherapy and being blessed with a pregnancy.

Of course, to both of us, this is not just a total miracle but a total blessing too. Everyday I pray that I will carry this pregnancy to terms, and my baby is safe and healthy. Insya-Allah.